A while back I told you about some changes I was making, relating to some health issues I'm dealing with. These changes helped somewhat for a while. But I'm afraid the time has come for me to go even deeper in these dietary changes.
It will be fairly drastic, a regimen sharply focused on gut-healing and careful food choices/combining. It's not going to be easy, for sure. In fact, I am pretty sure it's going to be the hardest thing I've ever done, and that's considering natural childbirth and homeschooling.
Can I be honest here? Completely honest? I am so bummed about this. It's going to have a huge impact on my life...on my summer...on how I participate in social gatherings. My food choices will be extremely restricted (the only fruit allowed is lemons, limes, and cranberries...I hate cranberries). There are a lot of seasonal goodies I won't get to enjoy this year. No beans (which means no hummus), no grains, no dairy products. Ah...cheese!
But you know what? I have reason to hope that this exercise will make a difference. And so, I have to try. Because I can't live this way.
My skin is a mess; half the time I just want to rip it off. I can't sleep...or rather, I can't stay asleep. I'm too uncomfortable. I am self-conscious about the way I look, and I generally don't want anyone to touch me - unless they're offering to rub my back...
People ask me how I'm feeling, and I know they mean in terms of my pregnancy. Honestly, pregnancy-wise I feel awesome. Stellar. Couldn't be better. But this other stuff...that's something different altogether.
I think the symptoms I'm experiencing are evidence of something that has been awry for a long time. It's time to do something about all this.
What I'm hoping - praying - is that things will have improved dramatically by the time my baby arrives in December. It could be very difficult to take care of a newborn under these conditions.
So...if you think about it, pray for me. I'm about to take the plunge. It's going to be difficult, no doubt about it - it'll mean extra work in the kitchen, changing my (healthy!) habits, and watching those around me eat my favorite foods without me. It'll mean difficulty in social settings; I've already found myself shying away from certain events which I know will focus heavily on food I can't eat. So yeah, it's going to be a challenge. But I hope - I pray - it'll be worth it.